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It has been awhile since I posted but things have been crazy around here as usual. I had the swine flu 2 weeks ago and had to spend a whole week away from Zane. I cried everyday. That is the longest I had ever been away from him and it killed me. But he did not get sick and that is the main thing. I got over the flu and was leaving to go to town and fell down my back doorsteps. Went to the ER and they said it was a second degree ankle sprain. I had torn some ligaments in my ankle. It is starting to feel better now but I still can't put all my weight on it. And then went to the store the other day and slipped in some mud and fell into a bench. It got my back pretty good. Wade told me to go home and don't leave again. LOL!! I am starting to think maybe I should listen to him.
Wade started a new job last week. He is now working in Cashadow, La(spelling). Him and three other guys rented an apartment there and stay Monday thru Thursday night. He comes home on Friday and is usually off the weekend. It is better than the last job. He was working days a week 10 hours a day and had an 1 1/2 hour drive to and back everyday. We never got any time together and Zane was really missing his daddy. At least now we get two days with him. I am so glad that he even has a job. There is so many out there that doesn't.
Zane will be 2 in a month!! Wow how the time has flown by. He is talking more these days but it is still when he wants to. If you try to get him to say something he looks at you like you are crazy. He says what he wants to when he wants to. LOL! It has been raining here for I know two weeks. It makes it difficult on me because Zane doesn't understand why he can't go outside to play. We let him go outside yesterday and he played in the water and mud for 3 hours. (The pics above show that) I have tried introducing potty training but he thinks the toilet is something to put things in and flush. I guess he isn't ready. We have been working on the pacifier. I had taken it away from him during the day and only let him have it at night. But when I was sick my mom and dad gave it to him all day and night. Undone all my work. But we are back down to naps and at night. I am going to have him completely off of it by his birthday. I am making everything for his birthday party myself. Trying to save money. I am going to make his cake and invitations. I am doing his cake in cars(not the disney movie). He loves anything with wheels. Doesn't matter what it is. I think it is going to be really cute. I have got to make up my mind what I want to get him. Wade and I went to ToysRUs the other day and there was so much that we wanted to get him we couldn't make up our mind so we left with nothing. I got a month to make it up. Halloween is going to be so fun. He is going to be a scarecrow. I made the costume myself and it is so cute. I hope he will wear the hat. I have been trying to get him to say trick or treat but again he looks at me like I am crazy. Mickey Mouse Clubhouse is going to be in Monroe on the 30th and I want to take him so bad but I am scared he would not sit there for the whole thing. He watches here at home all the time but he is steadily playing with stuff and moving around. I think I am going to wait and maybe when he gets older I will take him.
Well that is about all that is new with us. I am going to take a nap with Zane now. Hope everyone is having a good week!!
- Mood:
sleepy
It has been an exhausting week. Wade's sister's husband died last Thursday morning. It was horrible. He had a massive heart attack. He was 39 years old. I had to tell my oldest nephew. That was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. The youngest was there when the coroner called my sister-in-law. I got to her house as fast as I could. She was a wreck and I didn't really know what to do so I called my mom to come over and help me calm her down. She was hyperventalating(SP). I thought I was going to have to take her to the E.R. but she finally calmed down. I feel so sorry for them. But I talked to her earlier and everything is working out for them. The oldest is so anger right now and the youngest is just really sad. I wish I could take all the pain away from them. My sister-in-law is just beside herself. She isn't sure what to do now. I know I would be the same way if I lost Wade. They had been married for 17 years. I am going to do y best to help her and my nephews through this. Keep them in your prayers please.
Wade went to work in Arkansas thinking he was working 5 days a week 10 hours a day but got up there and he is working 12 hours a day 7 days a week. That really sucks because he doesn't get home until 9:00pm everynight and he is going to be so tired. He gets pretty grumpy when he gets tired. We usually end up arguing over something stupid. Zane really starts missing his dada when he is working like this.
Zane is growing so fast. I can not believe he will be 2 years old in a couple months. He is saying a new word everyday. He is so much fun. Well I have to go and put Zane to bed and visit with Wade a few minutes before he goes to bed. Hope everyone has a good week.
Wade went to work in Arkansas thinking he was working 5 days a week 10 hours a day but got up there and he is working 12 hours a day 7 days a week. That really sucks because he doesn't get home until 9:00pm everynight and he is going to be so tired. He gets pretty grumpy when he gets tired. We usually end up arguing over something stupid. Zane really starts missing his dada when he is working like this.
Zane is growing so fast. I can not believe he will be 2 years old in a couple months. He is saying a new word everyday. He is so much fun. Well I have to go and put Zane to bed and visit with Wade a few minutes before he goes to bed. Hope everyone has a good week.
- Mood:
gloomy
Seems like I have been so busy lately. We have been running and going everywhere. This week I have made a promise to myself that we are going to stay home and I am getting back into my exercise routine. Yesterday was wonderful. Today has been hell. I only got 2 miles done on the treadmill because my son would not quit crying and also the phone kept ringing. Zane is teething again and he has been so fussy and whinny. I wish these teeth would come in and he would feel better. He has two new words, night night and bye bye. He has always waved bye bye but would not say the words. He is going to be stubborn when it comes to talking. He says what he wants when he wants to. I took him a couple of weeks ago and had his picture made and they turned out so good. We went to Sears Portrait Studio this time and I really liked them. He was in such a good mood and smiled so sweet. I spent so much money on them but they were worth it. He is growing up so fast. He loves to play outside. We bought him a sandbox and he loves it. He had a pool but he would not get in it and then it busted so instead of getting him another pool we got the sandbox and he plays in it everyday. He loves to ride the tractor and the 4-wheeler with his daddy. He loves his daddy so much. When Wade is around nobody else matters. He won't have anything to do with nobody but Wade. He hasn't gained any weight. He still weighs 22 lbs. He is never still and is constantly on the go. He is my little man and I love him so much even through the fussy, whinny times. LOL!
Wade has been working 6 and 7 days a week. The heat is getting to him so bad. They told him this morning that he is on 7 days indefinitely. I wish there was something I could do to help him. I hate he has to be out in this hot, humid weather. It makes me feel so bad. I have been taking care of everything in and outside the house so that he would not have to worry about that. He was off Sunday and his mom kept Zane and me and him went fishing. Did not catch anything but it was a pretty relaxing day. I love to go fishing. It is quiet and peaceful. Our 7 year anniversary is coming up on the 2nd of August. I wish we could go away for a weekend but with him working like this we won't be able to. I don't think I could leave Zane for that long anyway. Maybe it will work out that we can go out on a date or just sit here by ourselves and cook supper and watch a movie alone. I enjoy laying on the couch and watching a movie with Wade. We don't get to do that very often anymore. Zane does not allow you to lay down unless it is night time. LOL!!
It is cloudy outside right now. I wish it would rain all day. It is so hot and dry out there that we need it. I have been watering my garden and my flowers everyday. My grass is dead. I did not even try to water it because my water bill is already outrageous and as long as my garden and flowers/trees are alive I am not worried about the grass. If it ain't growing then I ain't mowing. LOL! I have been canning and putting up vegetables for the past month. We put 56 bags of purple hull peas, 43 bags of creamed sweet corn, 20 bags baby green lima beans, 15 bags of squash, 8 bags of okra, and then I canned some tomatoes, made some homemade salsa and some ro-tel, and put up pickles and jalapenos. My garden did so good this year. This was my first year to have one and next year I will plant it a little bigger. I have so enjoyed working in my garden. It has given me something to do in the evening when Zane is outside playing.
Well I am off to go and fix some lunch. Zane fell asleep in the recliner. Hopefully he will eat something when he wakes up. Hope everyone has a good week!!
Wade has been working 6 and 7 days a week. The heat is getting to him so bad. They told him this morning that he is on 7 days indefinitely. I wish there was something I could do to help him. I hate he has to be out in this hot, humid weather. It makes me feel so bad. I have been taking care of everything in and outside the house so that he would not have to worry about that. He was off Sunday and his mom kept Zane and me and him went fishing. Did not catch anything but it was a pretty relaxing day. I love to go fishing. It is quiet and peaceful. Our 7 year anniversary is coming up on the 2nd of August. I wish we could go away for a weekend but with him working like this we won't be able to. I don't think I could leave Zane for that long anyway. Maybe it will work out that we can go out on a date or just sit here by ourselves and cook supper and watch a movie alone. I enjoy laying on the couch and watching a movie with Wade. We don't get to do that very often anymore. Zane does not allow you to lay down unless it is night time. LOL!!
It is cloudy outside right now. I wish it would rain all day. It is so hot and dry out there that we need it. I have been watering my garden and my flowers everyday. My grass is dead. I did not even try to water it because my water bill is already outrageous and as long as my garden and flowers/trees are alive I am not worried about the grass. If it ain't growing then I ain't mowing. LOL! I have been canning and putting up vegetables for the past month. We put 56 bags of purple hull peas, 43 bags of creamed sweet corn, 20 bags baby green lima beans, 15 bags of squash, 8 bags of okra, and then I canned some tomatoes, made some homemade salsa and some ro-tel, and put up pickles and jalapenos. My garden did so good this year. This was my first year to have one and next year I will plant it a little bigger. I have so enjoyed working in my garden. It has given me something to do in the evening when Zane is outside playing.
Well I am off to go and fix some lunch. Zane fell asleep in the recliner. Hopefully he will eat something when he wakes up. Hope everyone has a good week!!
- Mood:
productive
Wade and I are doing so much better. We have been talking a lot more and things seem to be getting back to normal. He is going to the doctor tomorrow. We have been together for 11 years and this is like the 4th time he has ever went to see a doctor. It took me 3 years to talk him into it. He is having stomach issues and needs to go. He finally decided I was right. LOL!! I feel so sorry for him. He is having to work in this 100 degree weather and it is taking a toll on him. I fixed him a good breakfast this morning. He doesn't eat during the day because it is to hot. I hope he is drinking enough. I worry about him passing out with a heat stroke. I wish he could find a permanent job. He worries all the time if he will have a job next week. We need some benefits and insurance as well. I had thought about going back to work but he doesn't want me to. He hates to know I would have to leave Zane and so do I. I enjoy being a stay at home mom. I get bored every now and then but for the most part I have plenty to do. I hope things look better in the future with his job situation.
I have lost a total of 54 pounds since February. I have worked so hard. Wade bought me a treadmill about a month ago and I have been walking just about everyday. I love to walk on it. I tried walking outside but Zane hates the stroller and does not walk with me so I felt like I was not getting the excercise I needed. I have 50 more to loose. I hope it goes fast. I have changed our eating habits and the way I cook. I love the show that comes on Lifetime "Cook Yourself Thin". It has a lot of good easy recipes.
Well I am going to try and lay back and sleep for a bit while Zane is. Hope everyone has a good weekend!!
- Mood:
worried
I am sitting here watching the show "I Can't Believe I was Pregnant." It is hard to believe someone does not know they are pregnant. But I guess it happens.
So Zane is growing and getting more rotten by the day. We took him to my nephews kindergarten graduation tonight and Wade ended having to take him outside. LOL!!! He has been screaming lately and it is this high pitched blood curdling scream. He does not stop when you tell him to hush, our no no, it really just makes him do it louder. We are working on no no. Have been since he started crawling but apparently it is taking him a while to grasp the concept of the word.LOL! He is jabbering more but not really saying much. He started saying whats that a couple weeks ago and watcha doin. I wish he would start saying more. I can't even get him to say moma very much. I work with him all the time but he will not sit and listen to me. He is never still and it makes it hard to teach him anything. He is a little go getter but I would not have him any other way. He loves to be outside. I have been planting flowers and I even planted me a little garden to take care of while we are outside playing. Zane could stay out there all day if I would let him. I am going to hate when it starts getting up into the 90's. I don't have any shade in my yard and I think it is going to be to hot to let him out for long periods. We will probably be at my mom and dads a lot. I can't believe he is 18 months old already. He is growing so fast. But he is still my sweet little boy.
Wade and I are not doing well. He has not hardly spoke to me in months. I confronted him this weekend about it and he told me he had a lot on his mind. So we sat down and talked about it and we even went shopping for Father's Day on Saturday. But Sunday was terrible. He acts like he is so unhappy. He is worried about work but that does not mean he has to ignore me. It makes me think he is mad at me when he won't talk to me. I hate it. We talked Sunday night again and he promised me he would treat me better. We went fishing Monday and had an awesome time. He caught 7 bass and 2 catfish. I caught nothing. But I was happy just to see Wade having a good time. So I think things are going to get better....WRONG!!! He comes home this evening and it is the same thing. One word answers no conversation about anything. We go to the graduation and he spent the whole time talking to his dad. We get back into the vehicle and he shuts down again. We get home and he went to bed. I have been sitting here thinking about what to do. I am tired of this. He just acts so unhappy. I have even thought about leaving him. He is not happy with me so maybe he would be without me? I don't know what to do anymore. It is like I told him.... I sit here with Zane all day by the time he gets home I need some adult conversation. Last week I would not say a word to him for 24 hours. When it was over he wanted to know what was wrong and I told him I wanted him to know how it felt to be ignored. I guess that did not work. I am praying things will change and get better soon I don't know if I can take this crap much longer.
Well, I have unloaded enough for one post. LOL! I am going to lay down and try to go to sleep. Hope everyone has a good and safe week.
So Zane is growing and getting more rotten by the day. We took him to my nephews kindergarten graduation tonight and Wade ended having to take him outside. LOL!!! He has been screaming lately and it is this high pitched blood curdling scream. He does not stop when you tell him to hush, our no no, it really just makes him do it louder. We are working on no no. Have been since he started crawling but apparently it is taking him a while to grasp the concept of the word.LOL! He is jabbering more but not really saying much. He started saying whats that a couple weeks ago and watcha doin. I wish he would start saying more. I can't even get him to say moma very much. I work with him all the time but he will not sit and listen to me. He is never still and it makes it hard to teach him anything. He is a little go getter but I would not have him any other way. He loves to be outside. I have been planting flowers and I even planted me a little garden to take care of while we are outside playing. Zane could stay out there all day if I would let him. I am going to hate when it starts getting up into the 90's. I don't have any shade in my yard and I think it is going to be to hot to let him out for long periods. We will probably be at my mom and dads a lot. I can't believe he is 18 months old already. He is growing so fast. But he is still my sweet little boy.
Wade and I are not doing well. He has not hardly spoke to me in months. I confronted him this weekend about it and he told me he had a lot on his mind. So we sat down and talked about it and we even went shopping for Father's Day on Saturday. But Sunday was terrible. He acts like he is so unhappy. He is worried about work but that does not mean he has to ignore me. It makes me think he is mad at me when he won't talk to me. I hate it. We talked Sunday night again and he promised me he would treat me better. We went fishing Monday and had an awesome time. He caught 7 bass and 2 catfish. I caught nothing. But I was happy just to see Wade having a good time. So I think things are going to get better....WRONG!!! He comes home this evening and it is the same thing. One word answers no conversation about anything. We go to the graduation and he spent the whole time talking to his dad. We get back into the vehicle and he shuts down again. We get home and he went to bed. I have been sitting here thinking about what to do. I am tired of this. He just acts so unhappy. I have even thought about leaving him. He is not happy with me so maybe he would be without me? I don't know what to do anymore. It is like I told him.... I sit here with Zane all day by the time he gets home I need some adult conversation. Last week I would not say a word to him for 24 hours. When it was over he wanted to know what was wrong and I told him I wanted him to know how it felt to be ignored. I guess that did not work. I am praying things will change and get better soon I don't know if I can take this crap much longer.
Well, I have unloaded enough for one post. LOL! I am going to lay down and try to go to sleep. Hope everyone has a good and safe week.
- Mood:
irritated
Today has been one of those days that you never want to think about again!!! It started off pretty good. Zane and I went to town to buy some groceries and pay some bills and after we stopped at the first place Zane just turned into a devil child. He was throwing tantrums, biting me, kicking me, pinching me, trying to pull my hair, and just being plain out bad. He hates to ride in anything(stroller, buggy, car), so the whole grocery shopping he was screaming and crying. Then my mom calls and wants us to go eat lunch. I think to myself maybe he will eat and take a nap? WRONG!!! He showed his butt at the restaurant. My mom could not even believe it. So we eat really fast and leave. He falls asleep on the way home but when we get here he refuses to stay there. So he had maybe a thirty minute nap and that is not good. So we go to leave again(he has to go back to the doctor for a checkup on the sinus infection) and I lock both of us out of the house. I can not get my dad to answer the phone(because he is napping) so we sit outside for like an hour. I finally get my mom to answer her cell and she leaves work to bring me a spare key. We then leave for the doctor and while we are at the doctors office Zane decides it is funny to open and slam shut the cabinet doors. When I tell him no no he precedes to scream at the top of his lungs and starts beating his head on the door. (SIGH) I am so embarrassed. We leave there and go get more medicine and then we come back home. We walk in and he gets so mad because he could not stay outside.(it was starting to rain) He lays in the floor and screams and kicks for like 30 minutes. I think well maybe he is hungry so I fix him some supper. He will not touch it. Every time I try to give home a bite he slaps the spoon away. So I give up on that and get him cleaned up and lay him in the floor to change him. He kicks me so hard that I have a bruise right in the middle of my stomach. I get him changed and put him on some cartoons and get him some toys out and I walk to the kitchen to straighten up. He then grabs a glass bear that I have sitting on my entertainment center and throws it on the coffee table and shatters it!! I tell him no no and put him int he recliner so I could clean the glass up. He gets down comes over and bites my leg. So I turned around and bit him back. He did not like that. I sit him back in the recliner and continue to pick up glass when he gets back down and come over and grabs a handful of my hair and pulls it. So I pulled his hair. He finally has had enough and goes to his room and plays. I just sat down and cried. I am hoping this is just a phase and he will start listening to me and stop the biting, hair pulling, and pinching soon. Please tell me he will. These tantrums are terrible and I don't know how much more I can take. He is asleep now and I am sitting here enjoying to quiet for a while. Maybe he is hitting the terrible twos early. Maybe it is a combination of the sinus infection and teething?(he is cutting four teeth) I don't know what it is but please tell me he will grow out of it and soon!!
On top of all that I am mad at my husband. And we are not speaking. I am also made at his family. I just did not have a good day. Really and truly this whole week has sucked. I hope Zane wakes up in a better mood tomorrow and I hope I get a better nights sleep tonight. I am so sunburned it is not even funny. My arms look like beets. I could not get comfortable last night because of this so I did not get much sleep. I am wore out too. I mowed my yard and my mawmaw's yard yesterday and I also cleaned my house and swept and mopped. I was super tired last night and still did not rest good. Maybe tonight will be different. I am also mad because I have not been able to walk because the treadmill is at my MIL house and I refuse to go over there and borrow it anymore. I am exercising as much as I can with what I have t work with but it does not feel like enough. I am at a stand still with my weight loss and it is so discouraging. I will be glad when I can buy me a treadmill. Wade has pretty much quit dieting and eating healthy with me and it has been so hard. Maybe I can get that back on track next week.?
Tomorrow my dad is supposed to come over and help me get a garden planted. I am really excited about it. It will give me something to do while Zane is outside playing. I hope everything lives. Last year I planted some tomato's and I did not even get one. I am planning on putting up some pickles and tomatoes and squash if everything makes it.
Well, I am gone to bed I am so sleepy. Hope everyone has a good weekend. Maybe mine will be ok!!
On top of all that I am mad at my husband. And we are not speaking. I am also made at his family. I just did not have a good day. Really and truly this whole week has sucked. I hope Zane wakes up in a better mood tomorrow and I hope I get a better nights sleep tonight. I am so sunburned it is not even funny. My arms look like beets. I could not get comfortable last night because of this so I did not get much sleep. I am wore out too. I mowed my yard and my mawmaw's yard yesterday and I also cleaned my house and swept and mopped. I was super tired last night and still did not rest good. Maybe tonight will be different. I am also mad because I have not been able to walk because the treadmill is at my MIL house and I refuse to go over there and borrow it anymore. I am exercising as much as I can with what I have t work with but it does not feel like enough. I am at a stand still with my weight loss and it is so discouraging. I will be glad when I can buy me a treadmill. Wade has pretty much quit dieting and eating healthy with me and it has been so hard. Maybe I can get that back on track next week.?
Tomorrow my dad is supposed to come over and help me get a garden planted. I am really excited about it. It will give me something to do while Zane is outside playing. I hope everything lives. Last year I planted some tomato's and I did not even get one. I am planning on putting up some pickles and tomatoes and squash if everything makes it.
Well, I am gone to bed I am so sleepy. Hope everyone has a good weekend. Maybe mine will be ok!!
- Mood:
stressed
I am going to the Jason Aldean concert tonight!! This will be the first concert I have ever been to. I am really excited. Things have been pretty much the same around here. I got almost 7 inches cut off y hair yesterday. This was the first real haircut I have had since high school (almost ten years ago). It feels so much better. My nephew (he's 16) told me that I was up to date now. LOL!! I also have lost 45 lbs!! I am feeling so much better about myself. Zane is learning something new everyday. I think he is hitting the terrible two's a little early. He has started being so contrary. But he is still so much fun right now. I am taking him to my mom in about an hour. I am gonna take a bath in peace!!! And have the afternoon to myself. That alone time is very rare these days. I will not know how to act. LOL!! My mother-in-law is keeping him Sat. night and we are going to have a get together her. It has been a while since we had one of those. We are going to cook, drink a little, and maybe play cards or just hang out. I can't wait. Well, I am going to fix Zane some dinner and then of to my mom's!!
- Mood:
excited
I am so tired of my husband. He is just not being himself lately and I am so tired of it. He never wants to do anything together anymore and he acts like he is so unhappy. Sometimes I wonder if I left would he be happy. I have been trying to imagine my life without him and it is hard. I love him but he is really getting on my nerves. I wish he would tell me what is wrong or what is bothering him. It would make life so much easier for me. Things never go easy around here. Money is always tight and there is always something coming up when we do get extra. I have been considering going back to work just to be alone sometimes. Between Zane and Wade I am ready to pull my hair out.
Easter was ok even though Zane did not get to hunt eggs because he was asleep when they hid them. He also was throwing fits left and right. He has started throwing tantrums lately. I mean he is beating his head on things and laying in the floor kicking and screaming. I tried ignoring it but that just ticked him off more so I tore his but up yesterday because he was head butting me and that did not seem to hurt his feelings or anything. He has so many bruises on him that you would think that I have beat him but he is doing it to himself. Yesterday he got mad because he could not go outside and started ramming his head into the glass screen door. I was trying to get him to stop because I thought he was going to break the glass. He has a big knot right in the middle of his head where he was hitting it. I thought I had a while before this stage got here but I was wrong. Any suggestions for what to do? He is also cutting four teeth right now so I know that is making him fussy but man it is getting hard not to put him in his bed and shut the door when he throws these fits. I can tell he is trying to get attention because if I walk away he will follow me into the other room and then fall on the floor and start screaming again. I am tired of the rain and cold. I am so ready for it to get warm and dry and stay there. Zane loves to be outside and half the time he can't because the wind is either blowing like crazy, it is raining, or it is cold. I guess I am just grouchy and need to vent.
Well, of course it just started raining so I got to get off here now and go do some household chores. Just like every other day!!
Hope everyone has a better day than I am having. Have a good week!!!
Easter was ok even though Zane did not get to hunt eggs because he was asleep when they hid them. He also was throwing fits left and right. He has started throwing tantrums lately. I mean he is beating his head on things and laying in the floor kicking and screaming. I tried ignoring it but that just ticked him off more so I tore his but up yesterday because he was head butting me and that did not seem to hurt his feelings or anything. He has so many bruises on him that you would think that I have beat him but he is doing it to himself. Yesterday he got mad because he could not go outside and started ramming his head into the glass screen door. I was trying to get him to stop because I thought he was going to break the glass. He has a big knot right in the middle of his head where he was hitting it. I thought I had a while before this stage got here but I was wrong. Any suggestions for what to do? He is also cutting four teeth right now so I know that is making him fussy but man it is getting hard not to put him in his bed and shut the door when he throws these fits. I can tell he is trying to get attention because if I walk away he will follow me into the other room and then fall on the floor and start screaming again. I am tired of the rain and cold. I am so ready for it to get warm and dry and stay there. Zane loves to be outside and half the time he can't because the wind is either blowing like crazy, it is raining, or it is cold. I guess I am just grouchy and need to vent.
Well, of course it just started raining so I got to get off here now and go do some household chores. Just like every other day!!
Hope everyone has a better day than I am having. Have a good week!!!
- Mood: grumpy
We enjoyed a nice beautiful day outside!
He could not figure out why this bush was blowing!
He was loving this sucker!
He got into the shower before I could!
- Mood:
cheerful
I have been so busy this week with yard work. I mowed, weed eated, raked my yard and my mawmaw's yard. I enjoyed being outside and working. My dad kept Zane while I did my mawmaw's yard and my MIL kept Zane yesterday while I worked in my own yard. I also got my truck washed and cleaned up. Wade is working 7 days a week so he doesn't have time to do these things right now. My brother came and helped me weed eat and mow yesterday. I enjoyed spending some time with him. It looks so much better. I have planted a lot of bushes, trees, flowers and so they are blooming and it is so pretty. I still have a few things to do in the yard but I have to wait until we have some extra money. My neighbor killed a snake in my driveway the day before yesterday. It was a big black chicken snake but I can't believe they are already coming out. The wasp are really bad too. I am going to call someone to come and spray for them next week. I don't want Zane to get stung. I know it hurts.
I am just sitting here with Zane being a little bored. He is watching cartoons and playing. I don't really have anything that needs to be done and we have no money to go anywhere so we are just hanging here. I am a little tired anyway and need to just relax. We have a b-day party to go to this afternoon. So Zane will enjoy that.
I miss Wade being here today. I hate when he works 7 days 10 hours a day. It seems like we don't get to spend any time together. I know we need the money but it is still a little depressing. :( Maybe this work schedule want be for to long. He can't do 7 days for very long because he gets wore out. I love him so much and hate to see him working like that. I wish he had more time to have fun. He loves to fish but never gets to go. It makes me feel guilty because he is working like this for me and Zane. Anyway....
Zane is cutting some back teeth on the bottom. He is not as fussy with these as the last ones but it won't be long before they pop through. He is getting so big and learning new stuff everyday. He has also learned to fall out in the floor and throw a tantrum. I have been just ignoring him and not giving him any attention when he does this but it hasn't stopped him yet. He is so curious about everything. He can't be still and he always has to be into something or doing something. He is so funny. He can make some of the funniest faces and noises. I am enjoying this stage because he is so cute. He wakes up every morning and the first thing he does is gives me a kiss. It is so sweet. He still will not say moma. His new words are:
bop bop(that is what he calls my dads chickens)
bye(and he started waving his hand finally)
yay(he claps his hands and says yay)
ite(which means bite)
He doesn't say much. I guess he is going to be one of these hard headed babies and will talk when he wants to. He has said other stuff but only a couple of times and he quits. I guess he doesn't say moma because I am always around and he figures he doesn't have to say it. He is a little like me when it comes to his attitude. But we wouldn't have him any other way.
Well, I am going to go and fix him so dinner. Hope everyone has a good weekend!
- Location:at home
- Mood: blah
- Music:mickey mouse clubhouse
Zane has been sick since last Thursday. It started Thursday morning with him throwing up and then the diarrhea started. I took him to the doctor that evening because he got to were he was weak and I was worried about him dehydrating. The doctor said it was not viral and his white count was almost 30,000. He gave him a shot of an antibiotic (which my son never even acknowledged) and a prescription for some nausea medicine. Well since we live in such a small town none of the drug stores carry anything for a child under two for nausea. He was still throwing up so bad that I called the doctor back and he said go to the emergency room. We get there and he is so lethargic and just weak. They take us back and the nurse said he needs fluids and she started an IV(he never even moved when they stuck him). The doctor comes in and acts like I am such an idiot for bringing him in. He said it was the roto virus. I said well our doctor said that it was not viral and that his white count was 30,000. The doctor said "I am not worried about his white count and he said there was nothing he could do about the diarrhea but he gave him something for the nausea and sent us home. Never even touched my son! Did not listen to his heart or check his ears or anything like that. I was so mad that he treated me like I was so stupid. I was even more furious at the fact they put an IV in for nothing! So..... we went home and he had stopped throwing up and was holding down the pedialite. The next morning I took him back to our doctor because I was worried about the white count. Our doctor said you get ER doctors like that and just not to worry about it. He checked his white count and it had come down to 11,000. He put him on an oral antibiotic and told me to keep him on the pedialite for the next 24 hours. Which we did. Saturday morning Zane woke up and was acting like he felt better so I gave him a little oatmeal and some milk. That was a mistake because he threw it up as soon as it hit his stomach. So we done pedialite for the rest of the day and tried toast that evening and he held it down. (The whole time the diarrhea was really bad and his butt is so red and blistered till he won't even sit down) Sunday he woke up and acted like he was feeling good. (OH.... by this time my mom and me were throwing up and could not stay out of the bathroom. Her and my dad went with me to the ER until Wade could get there) So Sunday went good until that afternoon when he started throwing up again really bad and was going to the bathroom every 5 minutes. I finally took his diaper off and put him in the tub and let him go. His butt was hurting him so bad. I was so sick and by this time Wade was starting to get sick. I got him out of the tub and calmed him down gave him some of the nausea medicine and put some cream on his butt, dressed him and he fell asleep. He was exhausted from crying. He slept all night and he woke up Monday morning with diarrhea but he was not throwing up and he acted like he was feeling ok. We went to the doctor and the did blood work again and his white count was still down but his white cells were showing he has a virus now. On top of everything else he has a virus!! (Throughout all of this he never ran a degree of fever) So he takes one of his dirty diapers and sends it off for a culture to see if it is the roto or if anything else shows up. He tells me to go and get some Kids Imodium and give him more pedialite. So we did all that yesterday and I tried him on some bland mashed potatoes last night and he held them down and the diarrhea is a lot better, not gone but not as often. Wade had to miss work again yesterday because he was so sick and I am better just really tired. So I thought we were all on the road to recovery but when Zane got up this morning he was congested and snotty. Of all things I did not expect him to be snotty when he got up. I am not going to take him to the doctor because we were just there yesterday and he is on an antibiotic. I am hoping it is just sinus/allergy crap. This weather around here is so damn crazy. On day it will be damn near 80 degrees and the next day it will be 30 degrees. He is sleeping right now. He is snoring really loud because his little nose is snotty and stuffy. I hope he starts to feel better soon. I tried to feed him some toast this morning but he was not hungry. His appetite is not back. His butt looks better, not well but not nearly as bad as it was. I have been letting him sleep with no diaper on so it can air some. I am keeping it really warm in here so he doesn't get cold or chilled. Wade and I got into a really bad fight Sunday night. Zane was crying so hard because his stomach and butt was hurting and Wade was stressed and so was I and we just kinda went off on each other. I felt really bad later that we let that happen. We apologized and we are fine now. He understands now that I am doing all that I can do for him. He thought there was something I was not doing. Made me feel like such a bad mother. But he apologized for that. Hopefully we will al be well by this weekend. I am tired of all this sickness.
I have to got o the doctor Friday for my weigh in and get more medicine. I think I am doing really good. Last I checked I had lost almost 25 pounds. I haven;t checked in a while and I have not exercised since last Thursday morning. I can't go to my mother-in-laws to walk right now because I don't wan them to get sick. The doctor told me to wait at least till next week until we get around anyone. I am going to do my exercises here and just hope that I don't gain anything back. I have been doing so good and I don't want to get off track. Right now I feel really bloated and tired. I know it is because of the virus but it still doesn't make you feel like you are doing any good. I am just praying to god that things are better soon.
Wade quit his job in El Dorado, Arkansas and moved to Vicksburg, Mississippi. His first day of work there was Thursday and he had to leave early to come to the hospital and he did not go in Friday because it was so late when we got home and Zane settled. And then Monday he was sick. Today was the first full day he will work. I just talked to him and he said they understood. They are good about that. Anywhere else they would have fired him or laid him off. He is only going to be there until the job in Texas starts up and then he is supposed to be going there. Who knows for how long. I don't even try to keep up with it anymore. As long as there is a pay check coming in I don't worry about where it is from. LOL!!
Well, I need to get off hear and do some cleaning and lysol everything. Zane is still sleeping. I hope he wakes up feeling good. I am going to try to get him to eat something when he gets up. Hope everyone has a good week!!!
I have to got o the doctor Friday for my weigh in and get more medicine. I think I am doing really good. Last I checked I had lost almost 25 pounds. I haven;t checked in a while and I have not exercised since last Thursday morning. I can't go to my mother-in-laws to walk right now because I don't wan them to get sick. The doctor told me to wait at least till next week until we get around anyone. I am going to do my exercises here and just hope that I don't gain anything back. I have been doing so good and I don't want to get off track. Right now I feel really bloated and tired. I know it is because of the virus but it still doesn't make you feel like you are doing any good. I am just praying to god that things are better soon.
Wade quit his job in El Dorado, Arkansas and moved to Vicksburg, Mississippi. His first day of work there was Thursday and he had to leave early to come to the hospital and he did not go in Friday because it was so late when we got home and Zane settled. And then Monday he was sick. Today was the first full day he will work. I just talked to him and he said they understood. They are good about that. Anywhere else they would have fired him or laid him off. He is only going to be there until the job in Texas starts up and then he is supposed to be going there. Who knows for how long. I don't even try to keep up with it anymore. As long as there is a pay check coming in I don't worry about where it is from. LOL!!
Well, I need to get off hear and do some cleaning and lysol everything. Zane is still sleeping. I hope he wakes up feeling good. I am going to try to get him to eat something when he gets up. Hope everyone has a good week!!!
- Location:at home
- Mood:
groggy - Music:ER
These are the pictures I had made. They turned out better than I expected. He is so handsome. Even though he showed his little butt while taking them. He is at that stage where he is to busy to sit still and smile. He wanted to explore and go rather than sit still and smile. I tried bribbing him with a cookie but that didn't work. He is so rotten but he is still my little boy. I love him so much.
- Mood: drained
His favorite Christmas present!!
He discovered the toilet paper!!
He loves opening and closing my trash can.
He is wondering what he can get into next!
We have been so busy lately. I am still walking everyday that I can and I have lost 8 pounds in 10 days!! I am so proud of that. Zane is sick right now so I will not get to walk for a while unless it warms up and Zane gets to feeling better. We went to the doctor this morning and he had 102 fever and is really snotty and coughing. He gave him an antibiotic. I hope he feels better soon. He was up most of the night and so far today his naps were very restless. I hope he sleeps good tonight.
We went and had pictures made last Friday. That did not go well. He was not int he mood for pictures. We did get several poses that were good but none that I was wanting. He just would not be still. He was going everywhere. He would not sit if we needed him to and if he was sitting he would not look at the camera. I was aggravated when I left there but I know it is to be expected when you have little ones. Maybe next time he will do better. I stopped into Old Navy and found some of the cutest clothes and shoes for this summer. When we get some extra money I am going to go and get some stuff.
Wade was so sweet Saturday. He got me 6 yellow roses, a huge dog that says I Love You this Much on his side, and a pound of fudge. I did not want to hurt his feelings but I took the fudge to his dad. I was not going to eat that and undo all my hard work. He understood. For my birthday he let me buy me a $100 dollar pair of shoes that I have been wanting . I am so excited about them. I can't wait to go somewhere that I can wear them. Who knows when that will be. Wade is working 12 hour days and not getting home until 9:00 every night and gone at 4:00 every morning. We won't see him much. He is looking for another job but he hasn't had any luck so far. I hope if he does get something else he won't have to leave home. I hate when he is gone. Maybe something good will come up here close to home. I am praying for that anyway.
Well, I need to go and do some cleaning and cooking. I am making chicken and dumplings for my pawpaw. He has been in the hospital for a week now and he is coming home this evening(we hope) and I wanted to cook him super. He had bypass surgery on his heart. He is doing great. Hope everyone has a good week.
- Location:at home
- Mood: hopeful
- Music:Blue's Clues
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Things have been going good around here. I started a diet on Monday and I have already lost a few pounds. It is a new start for me. I am determined to loose the weight I have put on on the last several years. I know I would feel better and be able to really play with Zane. I t is so hard not to think about food. I went to the grocery store and bought a lot of healthy food and some fruit and fresh vegetables. I am serious this time and my doctor is going to give me some adapex next Friday. We are waiting on some blood tests to come back and he also changed some other medication so he wants that in my system good before I start the adapex. I just want to feel better. I am always so tired and I never have energy. But this week since I have been eating better I have actually felt pretty good. Just wish me luck.
Zane has learned to climbed on things. The other day he climbed into the glider rocker and then up onto the arm trying to reach my plant sitting on the counter. Scarred me half to death. Then he used my bed and tried to climb over into his baby bed(it is really close to our bed). When I walked in he was kinda half in and half out of his bed. He is such a daredevil!! He isn't afraid of anything. He started saying moma more. The other night he was saying moma's baby!! It was so cute. He is such a joy and I love him so much. It was funny last night I got on to him for pulling out some of my DVDs and so he came over and gave me a kiss. Wade laughed so hard. I was trying not to but it was funny. I can't wait to see what he does tomorrow.
Wade and I are doing so good with money right now. We actually put a little in savings and still have a good bit left in our checking. I need one more W-2 and we can file our taxes. I hope we get a little back like last year. Before we had Zane we paid in every year. That sucked big time. But i will be happy if we break even and don't owe anything. I really want the over sized chair and ottoman that goes with my living room furniture but it is 1300.00 dollars and that is just way to much right now and it is not a necessity. My birthday is coming up and I don't really no what to tell Wade I want. I told him nothing because there really isn't anything I need or want right now. I know he will get something but he is just going to have to come up with an idea himself.
Well, Wade will be home any minute and I still have to give Zane a bath. Hope everyone has a good weekend!!
Zane has learned to climbed on things. The other day he climbed into the glider rocker and then up onto the arm trying to reach my plant sitting on the counter. Scarred me half to death. Then he used my bed and tried to climb over into his baby bed(it is really close to our bed). When I walked in he was kinda half in and half out of his bed. He is such a daredevil!! He isn't afraid of anything. He started saying moma more. The other night he was saying moma's baby!! It was so cute. He is such a joy and I love him so much. It was funny last night I got on to him for pulling out some of my DVDs and so he came over and gave me a kiss. Wade laughed so hard. I was trying not to but it was funny. I can't wait to see what he does tomorrow.
Wade and I are doing so good with money right now. We actually put a little in savings and still have a good bit left in our checking. I need one more W-2 and we can file our taxes. I hope we get a little back like last year. Before we had Zane we paid in every year. That sucked big time. But i will be happy if we break even and don't owe anything. I really want the over sized chair and ottoman that goes with my living room furniture but it is 1300.00 dollars and that is just way to much right now and it is not a necessity. My birthday is coming up and I don't really no what to tell Wade I want. I told him nothing because there really isn't anything I need or want right now. I know he will get something but he is just going to have to come up with an idea himself.
Well, Wade will be home any minute and I still have to give Zane a bath. Hope everyone has a good weekend!!
- Location:home
- Mood:
content - Music:barney
He loves being outside. My mom and dad got him this tricycle for his birthday and he loves for us to push him on it. This week is super cold and I am trying to keep him in. He is having some sinus drainage and I don't want him to get sick. He has not been himself the last few days. Yesterday he feel asleep standing at the recliner. It was so cute. He is also cutting two back teeth. They are giving him fits. I wish they could either cut them all at once and be born with them. LOL!! I know that is just wishful thinking. It is just so miserable for them. I hope it gets easier for him. He is so much fun right now. He is starting to copy things we do and jabbering so much. It is cute and fun to watch the different things that they learn each day.
Wade and I have a date this weekend. I am looking forward to it. I hope nothing happens where we can't go. Usually if we plan things something ends up happening. My mom and dad are keeping Zane for us Saturday and Saturday night. So we will have the whole day and night to spend together. It has been a while since we had some us time. We are going to the Ag Expo that day and then we are going to eat at Lonestar and do some shopping and then maybe a movie and then we are going to come home and have some quiet time. I am looking forward to it. I just hope nothing happens to spoil it. Wade and I are finally getting along and doing wonderful. I was starting to think that was never going to happen but we worked out our problems and we are moving forward. :) I love him so much.
Well, Zane is up from his nap so I am going to go play with him. Hope everyone is having a good week!
- Location:home
- Mood: excited
Well, I am so glad the Holidays are over. Things are getting back to normal around here. Christmas was great. I got a lot of great things and so did Wade and Zane. We ate way to much food but how can you resist? We had a really good New Years. My mom kept Zane for us all night and that was a good thing. We went to a friends house and sat around a fire and had some good found and drank a little. We stayed awake till midnight. LOL!! Just barely. Wade turned 29 on the 27th of December. I will be 27 in February. Man we are getting old. Zane is getting around and into everything. He is so much fun right now. He learns something new everyday. I look forward to that. Today he learned the button on his little Power Wheels 4-wheeler makes it go and he is running into everything. He hasn't learned to steer or watch where he is going. He watches himself pushing the button instead of what is in front of him. But I know it won't be long and he will be aiming for crap to run into. LOL!
Wade is still working in El Dorado but he is now coming home every night. Him and 2 other guys are riding together so gas isn't so bad. I am glad. I have really been missing him. I enjoy sitting and eating supper together every night. Zane gets so excited when his dad gets home. It is so cute. Wade is loving this stage Zane is in. He is a dada's baby and when he is around moma doesn't exist. But that is alright. I understand he doesn't get to see his dada as often a moma.
Well, I have to go Wade is going to be here any minute and Zane needs a bath. Hope everyone has a great weekend!!
Wade is still working in El Dorado but he is now coming home every night. Him and 2 other guys are riding together so gas isn't so bad. I am glad. I have really been missing him. I enjoy sitting and eating supper together every night. Zane gets so excited when his dad gets home. It is so cute. Wade is loving this stage Zane is in. He is a dada's baby and when he is around moma doesn't exist. But that is alright. I understand he doesn't get to see his dada as often a moma.
Well, I have to go Wade is going to be here any minute and Zane needs a bath. Hope everyone has a great weekend!!
- Location:in my on little world
- Mood: relaxed
- Music:barney
Well the rain is over and the sun is shinning!! But it is still cold! I have been cold all day even though I have the heat on. I guess it is just the temperature change and my body is adjusting. Zane is sleeping right now. He started walking a week ago. He is so cute. Wade says he looks like a bear on a tight rope. HAHA!! He does look like he is walking on a rope. He has started showing out in front of people. Not being bad but just showing everyone what he can do. It is funny.
Wade is working 7 days a week from now until Christmas Eve. I miss him. And I know Zane is missing his dada. Wade was home Sunday and Zane would not acknowledge me even being there. His daddy had to do everything. It was cute and I know Wade was tickled. We spent the day just relaxing and enjoying our day. Never one of us had to go anywhere and that was nice.
I am almost through with Christmas shopping. I have a couple of gift cards to buy and that is about it. I have no clue what Wade is getting me for Christmas. I gave him a couple of ideas but who knows. I want a 42" inch flat screen digital tv but I won't be getting that. LOL!! I got him a big craftsman toolbox and some tools to go in it, a watch, a drill, and I am going to get him a few more small things to put in his stocking. I love this time of the year.
Wade is working 7 days a week from now until Christmas Eve. I miss him. And I know Zane is missing his dada. Wade was home Sunday and Zane would not acknowledge me even being there. His daddy had to do everything. It was cute and I know Wade was tickled. We spent the day just relaxing and enjoying our day. Never one of us had to go anywhere and that was nice.
I am almost through with Christmas shopping. I have a couple of gift cards to buy and that is about it. I have no clue what Wade is getting me for Christmas. I gave him a couple of ideas but who knows. I want a 42" inch flat screen digital tv but I won't be getting that. LOL!! I got him a big craftsman toolbox and some tools to go in it, a watch, a drill, and I am going to get him a few more small things to put in his stocking. I love this time of the year.
I took Zane to see Santa and he wasn't scared one bit. He was amazed at the beard. My dad has a beard so I am sure he was thinking man I could do a lot of pulling!! LOL! I got him before he could give it a tug. He pulls on my dads beard all the time. He is so sweet. I made my Christmas cards on snapfish.com and used this picture. They look so good. I can't wait to get them in the mail and send them out.
Well I hope everyone has a good weekend and Happy Holidays!!
- Mood: cheerful
It has taken me so long to get these pics onto the computer. He had a wonderful party. And he enjoyed his cake a lot. I can't believe he is 1 years old. He is growing up. Still not walking but is taking three to four steps by himself so I don't feel like it will be to long. I hope he will say moma before long. There has been a few times we thought he said it but not sure. Everything is DADA!! We go tomorrow for 12 month shots. :( I dread it but I have put it off for to long now. He was 12 months on the 14th of this month. I hope it goes well. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Enjoyed the food and family. Zane was pretty good. He just hates being away from home all day. We went shopping the day after Thanksgiving and we had a good time. It was me, and 3 other friends. We were literally shopping for 12 hours. I don't think anyone really bought any Christmas. I know I bought a ton for myself. It has been a while since I have done that. It felt great. I was so tired when we got home. But it was really great. Well I think the old saying it is bad luck to put up you Christmas tree before Thanksgiving is true. I put mine up a little over a week ago and it is already dead. We bought a real one. We may not even have a tree by Christmas. I have watered it everyday and it hasn't even ran out. Who knows!! Well I am going to start supper. We are eating a little early but we didn't eat lunch. Hope everyone has a good week.
- Mood: content
He was our little stinker!!
He loves this dump truck. He pushed it all over the yard.
The last couple of weeks have been great. Wade and I are getting along wonderful and we are really working on our relationship. I am so glad. Zane is of course growing like a weed. He is not walking yet but it won't be long. His 1rst birthday is next Friday. His party is Saturday. We are having a construction themed party. "I Dig Being One" I thought it was cute. He is down to taking one bottle a day now and is on table food all the way. He has not missed his bottle at all. That was a blessing. Halloween was fun. Wade and I took him trick or treating with some other friends and we all had a good time.
My mom and dad got a new trailer and we helped them get moved in. They are so excited. I am excited for them. I still have not spoken to my brother. We saw him while we were trick or treating and he did not speak but I didn't either. I don't have anything to say to any of them. I miss my niece but my brother is not going to let me see her as long as we are fighting. Oh well... She will be old enough to understand things soon. I just hate to see my mom so upset. My brother will walk right passed her and never say anything and that hurts her so bad. I would love to bet the shit out of him and maybe put some sense in his damn head. LOL!!! I don't think him or his wife will ever grow up. ANYWAY......
It is dark and cloudy outside right now. I think it is going to rain. I love the darkness sometimes. It is relaxing. I tried to lay back and take a nap a while ago with Zane but I have a fly in here and he waits till I get laid back and then starts buzzing around and landing on me and Zane. It was annoying so I got up and of course I haven't seen the fly since. It just sated raining. It would be great if Zane would let me get a book and go and lay down in bed and relax and read. But he has been teething hard lately. He has 3 top teeth and 2 bottom and he is cutting his fourth top. And it is an eye tooth so it has been miserable. Mainly the diapers. The smell bad and are breaking his bottom out. I wish the teething was over. But I know I have a while to go. He is also going through some kind of separation thing. He hates when I go into another room. He crawls after me and cries until I pick him up. Once I pick him up and assure him he is fine and goes about playing. I hope that is over soon.
Well.... me and him are going to get our flu shots tomorrow. I hope he doesn't cry. He will get his 12 month shots the next week. I hope those are better for him too. But I have a feeling it will be worse. :( Well I am going to get off here and give him a snack and enjoy the rain. Everyone have a good weekend!! I plan to.
- Location:at home
- Mood: chipper
- Music:barney
